OKAY

I'm wondering how far I can push myself into someone else's life to the point that they realise they should be pushing me back out where I belong. 

Here, let me help you: this is the point. Unclench your fists and wiggle your toes, darling. 

Relax. 

I know how to read between the lines.

I'll take my leave then. 

Not a break, not a pause. 

Let's put a full stop. 

You can close this chapter and turn a new page without bricks in your shoes, without blood in your ink. 

Thank you for loving me. You can stop now.

PRESENT TENSE

I didn't know when I started to hate a series of alphabet.

all I know is someday I woke up in my desk with hands stained with inks and the words I never got to finish making shapes in front of my eyes—and suddenly, I hated every word with series of e's and d's in the end of it. cried. hugged. adored. trusted. loved. every damn words with e's and d's. I hate it. I hated the word hated. I despise it.

because e's and d's have the power of changing every meaning I want to say. because those silly alphabets hold the chance of making everything to stop existing. to make everything seems like it's long ago in the past; forgotten.

those silly alphabets made me scared to read your texts. that someday you decided to use those alphabets in every continuous tense you used to use. I'm afraid that someday your fingers pressed d right after you typed love. I'm afraid you'll used those alphabet to change every meaning of I love you's and to make every feelings to stop existing.

I'm afraid of the power that alphabet can ruin. I'm afraid you'll change I trust you to I trusted you—like you didn't anymore. I'm afraid one day I'll read your text where it used to show 'good morning, I love you.' to 'good bye, I loved you.'

up until now, I'm still so so so afraid.

because now you've moved on, and I still love you.

present tense.

EPOH

I hope it wasn't you. 

I hope it wasn't you who kept being there every time I needed someone to talk to. 

I hope it wasn't you who called me when I was at the lowest point just to hear me crying to 3 hours long. 

I hope it wasn't you who kept checking up on me just to made sure if anything happened. 

I hope it wasn't you who made me believe in myself. 

I hope it wasn't you who yelled to my face, screaming of how beautiful and worthy and incredible and unique and amazing, and how stupid I am for not realizing it, everytime I degrade my self-worth.

I hope it was just her and not you, so I didn't have to question myself, "How could I not have these kind of abstract feelings for you?" because you're simply dangerous, that you knew there's something wrong even if I didn't say any words, that you always had the nicest words to say, that you touched me without even using your hands.

You gave me the kind of feeling that every single writer has no words to explain and I can't talk to you without even think of how I wish I could go back to when my heart had not been touched by your words.

I've been hiding this for too long–someday I'll tell you that you're one of my best-est person and maybe I'll need you to know it's a lie–I hope you're not seeing this now.

NEGATIF

NANDA PUTRI AYU LESTARI / 14615974 / 4SA02

Kadang ku sengaja mendengarkan lagu sedih karna aku butuh alasan untuk menangis

Aku mendengarkan banyak sekali lagu seperti ini

Untuk mengubah perasaan ku agar lebih empati

Agar bisa merasakan rasa sakit, rasa sakit dari luapan hal negatif

Selama ini terus menerus bertambah tapi tak tau harus berbagi dengan siapa

Orang pandai menyimpannya sendiri

Hingga lupa hati sampai terasa mati

Lepaskan, keluarkan

Jangan diam, bicaralah

Keluar lah dari dunia gelap pekat penuh penderitaan

Kamu terlalu baik untuk disia siakan

Kamu terlalu baik untuk dicampakan

Kamu terlalu baik untuk diduakan

Kamu terlalu baik untuk ditinggalkan

Kamu terlalu baik untuk disakiti

Kamu gak pantas

Kamu bisa dapatkan hal lebih dari ini

Bangunlah. Suatu saat nanti kamu akan malu

Bahwa kamu pernah menangis karna hal kecil seperti itu

Lupakan, Pergilah, mereka hanya mampir

Mereka memang bertujuan untuk melukai mu

Belajarlah dari itu, belajarlah dari masalah-masalah mu

Kamu terlalu baik untuk di sakiti

Kamu terlalu baik untuk terus mengalah

Berani lah berkata tidak

Tidak untuk terus bertahan

Tidak untuk terus lemah

Tidak untuk terus diam

Tidak untuk terus bodoh

Sadarlah, kamu pantas dapatkan yang lebih baik

MANIS (MALAM-MALAM MENANGIS)

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Masih ingat dulu kecil ku hanya bernyanyi tanpa tahu arti apa itu "pelangi"

Sekarang ku sangat tahu apa itu "luka hati"

Yang ku tahu dulu ku menangis karna terjatuh berlari mengejar kupu-kupu

Sekarang ku menangis karna kamu terus lukai aku

Dulu ku menangis ingin dilihat banyak orang,

Sekarang ku berusaha tersenyum palsu didepan semua orang

Pojok kamar tempat favoritku,

Bantal teman terbaik ku,

Mengunci pintu

Dan mendengarkan lagu

Menangis sebanyak mungkin,

Menyendiri hingga lupa diri,

Memukul diri sendiri,

Sungguh benar-benar patah hati.

Benci ini, benci itu

Ingat dulu, ingat selalu.

Semakin ingat, semakin menyengat.

Dulu kecil tak ingin berhenti bicara

Sekarang sudah hilang kata-kata

Dulu hanya berpikir besok bermain apa

Sekarang berpikir bagaimana caranya dia bisa cinta

Begitu Manis,

Malam malam menangis.

SIA-SIA

NANDA PUTRI AYU LESTARI / 14615974 / 4SA02

Buatnya selalu bahagia

Lupa dengan diri ku sendiri

Ingin membuatnya menyukai ku

Padahal jika ada orang baru

Pasti dia tinggalkan aku,

Dia akan melupakan ku.

Tapi ini agar ku bisa memiliki mu,

Ku suka kamu, seperti sayangi kamu

Dan menjadi kekasih mu

Akan menjadi kemenangan yg sangat ditunggu

Kamu bilang "buat aku jatuh hati"

Belum "mulai" pun kamu sudah pergi

Menghindar, menghilang tanpa kata

Meninggalkan luka dalam sampai

Ku lupa rasanya cinta itu seperti apa.

Ku ingin kamu, ku tetap kamu.

Rasanya sakit, tp ku selalu bangkit.

Mengungkit rasa pahit.

Itu memang sangat manusia.

Sia-sia. Begitu sia-sia.

Sayang, aku masih ingin kamu,

Kamu pergi, tapi ku tetap melihatmu seperti hari pertama

Kamu menghindar, menghilang tanpa kata

Meninggalkan luka dalam sampai

Ku lupa rasanya cinta itu seperti apa

Sayang, aku masih ingin kamu,

Tetap kamu.

BUTA 999

NANDA PUTRI AYU LESTARI / 14615974 / 4SA02

Disini mencoba merubah perspektif diri

Tak ingin selalu melihat seperti kamu adalah sempurna

Jauh dari itu

Hilang akal, sampai terasa segalanya seperti masuk akal

Semuanya terasa benar

Karna buta

Begitu bertahan karna yg ku ingat hanya 1 kebaikanmu

Tetapi ada 999 kejahatan kepadaku

Terus-terus memuja mu,

Terus-terus memperlakukan mu bak ratu

Terus-terus menjadikan mu raja bagi hidupku

Ku hebat dalam membahagiakan mu

Hingga hati sendiri seperti sudah mati

Lupa diri, sampai lupa hati

Bahwa diri juga sangat berarti

Bahwa hati butuh juga dimengerti

Salah sekali, terus memaki

Benar sekali, tidak menghargai

Sudahi

Ku ingin pergi

Hapus tanda kamu adalah sempurna

Lupa diri, sampai lupa hati.

Bahwa diri begitu berarti

Bahwa hati butuh dimengerti

Salah sekali, terus memaki

Benar sekali, tidak menghargai

Sudahi, ini sudah menjadi jadi

Ku ingin pergi

NETIJEN

NANDA PUTRI AYU LESTARI / 14615974 / 4SA02

Berkelahi adalah hiburan

Divisi bully dan serang akun pribadi

No empathy

Mereka cepat mengkritik tanpa berusaha memahami

Musim vaksin berubah jadi ahli kesehatan lah

Musim pemilu berubah jadi ahli politik lah

Ahli hukum, ahli tata rias lah

Ahli agama hingga tata boga yah

Menunggu karma dibayar tunai

Karma datangnya dari apa yang kita tuai

Mereka rata-rata emosi tinggi

Jiwa preman, jiwa tempe

Belaga seperti superman, padahal aslinya cemen

Istirahatkan lah hati

Lupakan segala emosi

Jangan menyakiti

Ingat intropeksi diri

Sukanya ngomongin dosa orang

Dosa sendiri tidak berani terus terang

Dasar manusia, sia-sia

Gak ada gunanya, buat apa

Nikmatin hidup selagi masih "ada"

Jangan mikirin para pendosa

Kalian yg "suci" pasti tau kalo menyakiti sesama itu dosa

Apalagi saling menghina

Saling hujat, saling sikut padahal tidak dapat apa-apa

Kepuasaan adalah sementara

Provokasi itu kejahatan

365 hari dibuat untuk hujat sana sini

Hingga lupa diri sendiri,

Sampai hati mati,

Lupa melihat kedalam diri

Hidup di habiskan untuk menyakiti

365 hari bisa dibuat untuk memajukan diri

Jadilah jari yang pandai

Jangan seperti keledai

Jarimu membunuh

Jarimu harimaumu

CLAUSE AND SENTENCES

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1. Clause definition


Clause is a group of words that includes a subject and a verb.
A clause can be distinguished from a phrase, which does not contain a subject and a verb. 

Words and phrases are the parts of language that make up clauses. Clauses are units of grammar that contain at least one predicate (verb) and a subject. A clause, therefore, contains a single verb group.

A clause is different than a phrase.

• A clause is a group of words with a verb and a subject.
• A phrase does not have a verb and subject.

2. Clause Functions

There are two main types of clauses: Independent and Dependent

a) Independent Clauses
An independent clause could be a sentence by itself or could be combined with other clauses.

b) Dependent Clauses
A dependent clause cannot be a sentence by itself. If it was by itself it would be a sentence fragment. It needs to be combined with an independent clause to be a full sentence.

3. Connecting Clauses

a) Connecting Independent Clauses

Connect two independent clauses in several ways:

1) By adding a comma and a conjunction such as:
And - Joe was afraid of bears and he ran quickly when he saw a bear approaching.
But - The boy wanted to go to the movies but he had already spent his allowance.
Or - You can start the fire with charcoal lighter or you can use a charcoal chimney.
Nor - He wasn't interested in going to the party nor was he invited.
Yet - The woman was late for the meeting yet she still stopped to freshen her lipstick.
So - The little girl wanted to please her parents so she did everything they told her to do.

2) By using a semicolon

3) By using a semicolon and a conjunctive verb such as:
However
Moreover
Nevertheless
As a result
Consequently

b) Connecting Dependent Clauses
Typically there are no connector words or punctuation when dependent clauses are combined with independent clauses.

4. Importance of Clauses
By using clauses correctly you can quickly and easily improve the quality of your writing and your ability to communicate with your reader. With a clause you can direct the attention of the reader so that your sentence is understood. You will also avoid incorrectly using dependent clauses as sentence fragments.

a) An independent clause can express a complete thought (and can be a standalone sentence). 

b) A dependent clause is usually a supporting part of a sentence, and it cannot stand by itself as a meaningful proposition (idea).

Examples of Independent Clauses

This are some examples of independent clauses :

1. Tara ate a cheese roll after she watched the news.
(Tara ate a cheese roll is an independent clause. It works as a standalone sentence.)

Examples of Dependent Clauses

This  are the same examples with the dependent clauses :

2. Tara ate a cheese roll after she watched the news.
(The clause after she watched the news is a dependent clause. It does not work as a standalone sentence.)

These three dependent clauses (or subordinate clauses as they're also called) could have been independent clauses. However, the opening word(s) (in these examples after, Even though, and but) turned them into dependent clauses. The opening words are known as dependent words, the main type of which is subordinating conjunctions.

5. How Are Clauses Used in Sentences?
Clauses can play a variety of roles in sentences. A clause can act as a noun, an adjective, or an adverb.

a) Noun Clauses

I cannot remember what I said last night.
(In this example, the clause acts like a noun.)

Compare the example above to this:

I cannot remember my speech.
(speech = noun)

b) Adjective Clauses

My dog, who usually refuses to go near the water, dived in the canal to chase a water vole.
(In this example, the clause acts like an adjective.)

Compare the example above to this:
My water-shy dog dived in the canal to chase a water vole.
(water-shy = adjective)

If an adjective clause could be removed without wrecking the sentence (i.e., it just adds additional information), then it should be offset with commas. (You could equally use brackets or dashes.) A clause which can be safely removed is called a non-restrictive clause. A restrictive clause, on the other hand, is one which cannot be removed because it's essential to the sentence. Restrictive clauses are not offset with commas. For example:

The man who lives next door is getting ruder.
(This is an example of a restrictive clause. You cannot remove it. There are no commas.)

Councillor Simon Smith, who lives next door, is getting ruder.
(This is an example of a non-restrictive clause. You can remove it. It's just additional information. That's why there are commas around it.)

c) Adverbial Clauses

He lost his double chin after he gave up beer.
(In this example, the clause acts like an adverb.)

Compare the example above to this:

He lost his double chin recently.
(recently = adverb)

An independent clause, also called a simple sentence because it contains a subject and a verb, and it expresses a complete thought. Right, let me list the two similarities between them: Clause and sentence contain a subject and a predicate. Just like a sentence, in some occasion clause can convey a complete thought.

1. A simple sentence usually consist of a single finite clause with a finite verb that is independent. 

A simple sentence contains only one clause. Here are some examples of simple sentences that are each comprised of a single clause:

a) Darby played.

b) Jamie cooked the dinner.

c) A man in Cincinnati swam in the river.

d) Sammy will excel on the varsity team.

f) Jennifer has been dreaming during class.

A verb group can consist of a single word (such as played, cooked, and swam) or combine multiple words (as in will excel and has been dreaming). The essential component of a clause is the verb; and a clause only contains one verb or verb group.

More complex sentences can combine multiple clauses or phrases to add additional information about what is described. Clauses may be combined using conjunctions – such as “and”, “but” and “or”.

E.g. “He went out to dinner but didn’t enjoy the meal.”
This example is composed of two independent clauses, “he went out to dinner” and “he didn’t enjoy the meal”, combined with a conjunction- “but”.

1. A simple sentence has only one clause, and one independent variable. The cat is sleeping.

2. A compound sentence has two or more clauses. These clauses are joined together with conjunctions, punctuation, or both. The dog is happy, but the cat is sad.

3. A complex sentence has one clause with a relative clause. The dog, which is eating the bone, is happy.

4. A complex-compound sentence (or compound-complex sentence) has many clauses, at least one of which is a relative clause: The dog, which is eating the bone, is happy, but the cat is sad.

Sentences have different purposes:

1. A declarative sentence, or declaration, is the most common type of sentence. It tells something. It ends with a full stop . (The dog is happy.)

2. An interrogative sentence, or question, asks something. It ends with a question mark ? (Are you happy?)

3. An exclamatory sentence, or exclamation, says something out of the ordinary. It ends with an 
exclamation mark ! (That dog is the happiest dog I have ever seen!)

4. An imperative sentence, or command, tells someone to do something. (Give the dog a bone.)

1. A simple sentence contains a subject and a verb, and it may also have an object and modifiers. However, it contains only one independent clause.

Here are a few examples:

a) She read.

b) She completed her literature review.

c) He organized his sources by theme.

c) They studied APA rules for many hours.

2. A compound sentence contains at least two independent clauses.  These two independent clauses can be combined with a comma and a coordinating conjunction or with a semicolon.

Here are a few examples:

a) She completed her literature review, and she created her reference list.

b) He organized his sources by theme; then, he updated his reference list.

c) They studied APA rules for many hours, but they realized there was still much to learn.

d) Using some compound sentences in writing allows for more sentence variety.

3. A complex sentence contains at least one independent clause and at least one dependent clause. Dependent clauses can refer to the subject (who, which) the sequence/time (since, while), or the causal elements (because, if) of the independent clause.
If a sentence begins with a dependent clause, note the comma after this clause. If, on the other hand, the sentence begins with an independent clause, there is not a comma separating the two clauses.

Here are a few examples:

a) Although she completed her literature review, she still needed to work on her methods section.
Note the comma in this sentence because it begins with a dependent clause.

b) Because he organized his sources by theme, it was easier for his readers to follow.
Note the comma in this sentence because it begins with a dependent clause.

c) They studied APA rules for many hours as they were so interesting.
Note that there is no comma in this sentence because it begins with an independent clause.

Using some complex sentences in writing allows for more sentence variety.

Sentence types can also be combined. A compound-complex sentence contains at least two independent clauses and at least one dependent clause.

Here are a few examples:

a) She completed her literature review, but she still needs to work on her methods section even though she finished her methods course last semester.

b) Although he organized his sources by theme, he decided to arrange them chronologically, and he carefully followed the MEAL plan for organization. 

c) With pizza and soda at hand, they studied APA rules for many hours, and they decided that writing in APA made sense because it was clear, concise, and objective.

Using some complex-compound sentences in writing allows for more sentence variety.

Pay close attention to comma usage in complex-compound sentences so that the reader is easily able to follow the intended meaning.